31 July 2010

America's Royal Wedding

Attending their daughter Chelsea's most elaborate multi million dollar wedding week celebrations, Bill and Hillary Clinton have never looked better or prouder.

I could not love these two people more than I already do.

The 42nd Presidents TIRELESS efforts is boosting significantly HIV-AIDS funding for 3rd world countries which has literally saved hundreds of thousands of lives.

Hillary Clinton has been a great inspiration to me for nearly twenty years, not only because of her own epic life story and journey, but also because she is a woman not unlike my own mother in many ways.

The whole of America is anticipating the Clinton's sole child's nuptials which take place today.
The biggest question of course is what the bride will wear.
Vera Wang or Oscar de la Renta!
Good luck Chelsea!

29 July 2010

DJ Montano's Cocaine Legacy

Charles Caleb Colton once said power will intoxicate the best hearts, as wine the strongest heads. No man is wise enough, nor good enough to be trusted with unlimited power.

And just like the case of DJ Montano, the Philippines so-called “high society” is at it again with the very same key players are involved…Prior to that, certain quarters had tried to give the local media the runaround (including Channel V’s JM Rodriguez, actor Jomari Yllana and actress Lovi Poe) by claiming that it was a namesake of the younger Singson who has been detained in Hong Kong.

Eventually, the suspect’s father felt compelled to confirm his son’s arrest. The elder Singson (a big bravo to Chavit) also virtually verified the congressman’s offense when he was quoted saying in several media interviews, “let this incident be a lesson to all”..!

Click HERE to read FULL REPORT

28 July 2010

My Blue Shoe

My father took this picture of my shoes in Manila.
It's just such a private and favourite of mine, I wanted to share it.
Thanks Daddy.
You totally captured my life with this one image.

27 July 2010

My Boyfriends Banana Bread


My beloved boyfriend has decided that he's a great pastry chef because he has learned how to make banana bread.
He wants to open a banana bread store now because he thinks it's THAT great!
OMG, I love him so much even though he truly is a bit wacky.
Being married to a Filipino is really the most amazing thing in the world I've discovered.
The guy I love is totally so beyond awesome.
But I'm not fully sold on his banana bread store idea....

Thank You Mummy

Thank you mummy for one of the best weeks of my life.
I am so honoured to be your son.
You are always there for me so I am blessed.
I adore you, idolize you and love you dearly.
Our secrets bond us forever.
You are #1 in my life and always will be.
B.

23 July 2010

Criminal DJ's Connections in LA

Do you know any of these people in this picture?
They MUST be warned although Chris Megaffin is well aware so I'm surprised to see him with Montano!!!!
I wonder if DJ Montano's friends know he is a wanted criminal?
Do they know he stole 70,000 illegally?
Is Oliver Tolentino your next VICTIM?

Does DJ think he will ever escape the realities of his crimes against me?
People will always be watching out for him.
Delfin is a criminal who fled his own country to avoid JAIL!

The thief with his friends and his new life in LA.
DJ should be in prison, not a cocktail party!
He STOLE money from a HIV positive man!
PAY UP!

The Beginning

DJ Montano and I were lovers for almost a year and for five months of that, I was in Australia making and sending him money for our Portuguese restaurant called Bonza, in the new Greenbelt phase which is yet to be completed.

The ‘owner’ Antonio was kept away from me and now I know why. Any meeting that we were to have to discuss progress was cancelled at the last minute due to Antonio's 'schedule' DJ said. I was such a fool but DJ had created fake documents and I was convinced because Celine and Marcel would be part of it, it would be fine.

But Mr. Antonio does not know nor has he ever known about me. It’s my money that is helping to open his establishment. But Antonio will know soon enough as will every other person attached to the money that has been taken from me in the name of his or her business, by DJ Montano.

I have found out that DJ actually used part of my money to pay off a debt of his own making that his family was being threatened over.

It was his debt from his previous restaurant that he had shunned responsibility for, for over three years. Finally, the guy got fed up and threatened to sue his family. This made DJ jump like a roo. He begged me for fifty thousand dollars while I was still in Australia preparing to move to Boracay. But I had not sold my house yet and could not raise such lofty sums on such short notice.

He was cross with me. Hung up the phone and would not speak to me until I sent the money. And soon enough, he got his devious little hands directly into my bank account.

I know this debt to be factual; as I know the man he owed the money to and eventually paid. He introduced himself to me on Boracay because a mate told him who I was and what I had been through with DJ.

DJ and I shared our time together until our relationship ended at the end of last year due to an 'altercation' we had at the Intercontinental Hotel, after I demanded to know where all my money had gone.

My mother had become concerned at the amounts I was transferring and triggered my own fears. I still trusted him and loved him at this point. Stupid man I was.

He changed in the hotel room after I demanded to see proof of the bank accounts he said he had opened in both of our names. He transformed within seconds into a person I had never met before.

He threw himself at me and I was stunned. I begged him to calm down, but he knew this was it. Make or break for him. My money was in the balance and he did NOT want or have it to give back to me. It was gone, not unlike his morals, dignity and self-respect. Just plain gone!

At one point, I pushed him off me and he hit the corner of the bed falling to the floor, where he literally screamed like a little girl. It was truly pathetic to watch. I was shocked because he immediately started to scream assault. DJ Montano is an evil little creature. I believe in my heart of hearts, he pre-planned the entire thing. He had to get rid of me... but somehow keep my money that clever little critter.

Post altercation, he tried (with the help of his Celine Lopez's ex-fiancé Marcel Crespo to have me fitted up with an assault charge which was bogus and dismissed by the police without a mention.

When he left my hotel room after I left for gym, he stole many things from my room.

1. Brand new Yogi shoes which I had yet to wear which cost 500 dollars
2. 2 new Tsubi tops and tsubi jeans, which cost US1800
3. Brand new Tom Ford Sunglasses, which were US900
4. Three bottles on duty free scent, which were US300
5. Teeth whitening kit, which was US1000
6. Very expensive necklace worth US 3000 dollars
7. Plane ticket to Bora for 6000 pesos
8. 250,000 pesos

He was trying his hardest to revive it and bring a charge against me, which has failed.

He is only doing this to counter the truth coming from me and my friends in an attempt to illicit sympathy from his own stable of so called 'friends'.

Panic attacks my ass. Lay off the drugs mate. And cut down your anti d intake mate.

But his reputation is shocking because of what he has done to me and for what he has done to others.

And the majority of the group know it. But some choose to look the other way therefore enabling him to continue along his path of destruction and total disregard for the concern of others.

On Bora, DJ owes so many people money for cocaine. I know four people he owes a total of about 240,000 pesos to. And they are pissed. They look for him always.

Even the police know he is a liar. I told them on Boracay that he was threatening to have me thrown off the island. They laughed.

I deserved so much better than that carnival of sideshow freaks and illusionists I was around for a while.

Trick mirrors everywhere in their world.

Poor Celine Lopez. The girl needs major rehab. It's why they think they are superior to others. When in fact, they cannot function without coke.

My Yaya runs circles around them all when it comes to honesty and integrity.

DJ wanted me deported so he could just take every penny from me. I am not prepared to tell all until I am out of the country as DJ many times told me his family had the power to make people 'disappear'.

And I plan to tell all and everything.

It really will shock so many people to find out what is really walking amongst them.

Or then again, maybe it won't.

It's all up to the individual. But many people will be blown away when I reveal all.

I am in the final stages of leaving the country mostly due to his immoral and constant attempts to undermine what was once a beautiful dream for me here.

It's dead.

I have tried to recover, but the memories are everywhere, and his lies and lies and lies still rip me apart inside. To bloody shreds.

His 'best' girlfriend told me to be a man about it not that long ago.

And this was coming from a filthy breath cokehead that can barely stand upright in the morning without a big fat bump of the drug. Tragic figure Celine Lopez cuts. But she got hers when her ex fiancé dumped her ass because of her shocking addiction to cocaine.

But more about her later.

And I will spill the lot!

She thinks I don't know her.

But she is as transparent as a piece of snotty tissue after a nose blow.

Cruelty is DJ’s middle name. DJ Montano is a very one dimensional and incredibly unforgiving to those whose eyes may not be fully open to the sheer audacity of it all.

He enlisted his mother at one point to fight his battles for him with me. She called me a liar and threatened to have me deported if I went after my money.

I told her son stole my money but she replied, "My son is a God fearing man."

What a joke.

He has not one Christian bone in his little deformed body. I asked her why she is so concerned about our situation when she really should feel guilty about never having his teeth fixed.

Gnarly little jabber jaw!

The lies that came out of that jagged toothed orifice still shocks me. DJ Montano told me thousands of lies.

His threats of deportation if I pursue the money have left me a shadow of my former self. I love this country but he has snatched away this particular part of my life journey.

It's just too much now and I need a fresh start. He wanted my money, and now he has it.

Not all of it thanks the Lord.

He almost got me to transfer eighty thousand dollars to him the DAY BEFORE THE BREAK UP WHICH I AM CONVINCED HE PLANNED FOR WEEKS BECAUSE AS SOON AS I QUESTIONED WHERE ALL THE FUNDS HAD GONE, IT WAS ALL OVER FOR US.

My prince turned back into a frog. He turned into a fat slippery poisonous thieving little toad.

The pain has proved to be too much of a hurdle to jump over... even here on beautiful Boracay.

Although my gorgeous amazing friends have stood beside me through the whole sordid ordeal, it's just not enough.

He has put so much fear into me with regards to the country and its people. Convinced me my Yaya was stealing from me, which was a filthy lie. My Yaya ROCKS!!!!

It was him who was going through my wallet pinching a thousand here and there.

Meanwhile, the entire time, it's him who was stealing from me. I will provide details regarding items he took from me in my hotel room and other shocking revelations. For a while, I was sure I was going to be bundled away and never heard from again due to the disgusting rumours that reached me through his 'camp'.

I hired two security guards for three weeks because he was telling people he was going to have me thrown out of the Philippines.

His family is actually powerless and poor. They fear me more now than I fear them. All smoke and mirrors. DJ is from a family long littered with corruption and thievery. The grandfather was a crook and the father a mere mercenary. Killed because of his treachery and deception. Money people are chasing his uncle due to his corruption.

You could not even imagine what he and this has done to me. No one could. Unless you have been dragged through the quagmire of 'DJ's' makebelieveland' with its razor lined cul de sacs, glass infested playgrounds and transparent hollow suburbs.

This Australian boy has been well and truly fucked over by this disastrous conniving little Pinoy.

From absolute day one, I was being finessed for my cash. I am not an idiot, but after my time with DJ Montano, I have been left embarrassed and humiliated and sixty five thousand dollars poorer.

Not to mention the rest, which is another fifteen to twenty thousand, dollars for our other travel business, which was to be called Montage Travels, a tourism-booking agency for Boracay, which I was to operate due to my experience in this industry back, home in Australia.

I gave him this cash hand-to-hand mostly therefore I can't prove that I gave it to him at all. He knew this and planned it in advance. He knows and uses the system in this country over and over for his corrupt behaviour. DJ knows that going to court is timely and costly to a foreigner and we are unwilling to go through even more torture in a system so foreign to us.

He is the worst type of person and a complete disgrace to this country. Common criminal. He should be full of shame but he is an unrepentant psychopathic. Not meek or reserved or genteel, but the exact opposite of that which is cruel and actually quite ignorant.

He told me that his connections with the DOT were sure to launch our business on Boracay. He said over and over until I was convinced. I have contacted the DOT and they were stunned by my story.

They did not have any record of DJ being involved with the DOT.

More lies. Lies, lies, lies.

But I was blinded by his deceptive brilliance and unconscionable trickery. He is a master at the sell and the close.

He used my money to fly back and forth to Singapore to be with his other boyfriend who I only found out about because he has one friend in particular who has helped me come to terms with what he turned out to be.

But he told me it was official DOT work.

Rubbish.

My heart is broken because of the deception. I loved him entirely and he did nothing but use and abuse me.

When I am safely out of the Philippines, I plan on telling everything I know about him and his enablers.

"One hundred and one things you did not know about the 'Gucci' Gang" from an intimate insider.

I would be most pleased if you would post my list and help shed some light on the toxic issue of 'self entitlement' which is so prevalent in your Manila 'society', not to mention plain old fashion greed, fear of poverty and chronic dishonesty and the lack of truth that plagues certain people in it.

Not to mention the cocaine addiction and abuse.

I had to pay DJ's driver once in Manila because he would not move the car until he had money. DJ owed him three months salary. I gave him eighteen thousand pesos. Never got it back. But that's ok, because I really liked the driver.

DJ the poor thing, working for a wannabee socialite with a crap car with no aircon. But that night he had loads of coke. So I paid his bills but he still had coke money.

His close girlfriends (both of them) knew he had another boyfriend in Singapore the entire time we were together.

They have denied it. I know the truth. But I know now, that they are nothing but mould on the slinkiest piece of cheese on this particular platter of faux decadence and privilege.

I have zero empathy for these wild and woolly creatures that will be exposed for what they are. Irrelevant nothings struggling for definition in a world where there is no true place of value for them to rest there swollen over indulged airheads.

Just a bunch of insecure coke snorting goblins who objectify their entire environment due to their lack of moral compass and directional focus. Poor things and the gift bags they get.

It’s the only reason they show up. Amass amass amass. I feel so sorry for them. Therefore I will never forgive them for their callous disregard for my feelings and I’ll show them how it feels to be blindsided in such a brutal fashion.

DJ is on so many drugs and several anti depressants and I battled constantly with his fluctuating moods and flashed of anger. He needed a ton of sleeping pills not to mention the copious amounts of cocaine he used to get through.

When we were together, I begged DJ to stop snorting drugs and he told me many times he had, but I always knew he was lying because he would sniffle and snort constantly. He used my money to buy his drugs.

When I confronted him about his shocking addiction, he simply denied it and told me I was crazy and ‘too conservative’. But one time I found nine Baggies of coke in his gym bag. I asked his what it was and he told me it was vitamin powder from his 'healer'.

I was so stupid, I believed him.

That night I caught him and his partner in crime Celine Lopez snorting lines at Embassy. I was devastated because DJ promised to stop. If I knew he was a drug addict, I NEVER would have looked at him let alone dated him. He stole my money. DJ ruined my life.

19 July 2010

MUST WATCH HIV NEWS



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RIP Grandma 1924-2010

My dearest darling Grandmother passed away last night peacefully in her sleep. My grandmother believed in God so I have no doubt she is in the greatest of hands now. I love you Grandma sooo much. I will miss you dreadfully. (image- Christmas Day 2008)

17 July 2010

12 July 2010

05 July 2010

AMAZING Toronto PRIDE 2010





Launch of Threesome: 3 Books to Break the Rules


Grey Matter Publishing invites you to the launch of:

Chronicles of E

The Wetbook: Stories from the Bathhouse

Dear Migs: Letters to Manila Gay Guy


Launch with performances, meet the authors, book signing and cocktails.

Threesome launch price at P450 (3 books in limited edition box set) Books will also be sold individually.

For more information and directions to the venue: www.greymatter-publishing.blogspot.com

Queries: greymatter.publishing@gmail.com

Date:
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Time:
4:00pm - 7:00pm
Location:
theROOM G/F Unit 8802 Crowne 88 Condominium
Street:
88 Panay Avenue

03 July 2010

01 July 2010

The Danger of Normalcy




More than 24 hours have passed and still everyone talk about the famous line that was "walang wang-wang, walang counterflow, walang tong". It seemed as if the whole nation was swayed by another wave of promises, that hopefully (I place my bet on this) will put a more serious tone towards real change in governance. I am a G1BO supporter, but I have to admit I was touched by Noynoy's inaugural speech.

Ok, this is not what I really wanted to write all along.

A certain acquaintance had just announced to the world that one of his friends was tested positive with HIV.

Consequently an upsetting feeling of sadness ensued. And with as fast as how Lady GaGa can re-invent herself with another gorgeously-garish outfit, friends started to throw in their responses. Me included. Some of the responses were more proactive, others took a conservative approach. But at the back of my mind, I started to think that everyone may be thinking to themselves, "well, may magagawa pa ba ako sa taong yun?"

Thing is, this acquaintance of mine is a well-known guy. He's an outspoken activist and a knowledgeable historian; a self-professed Manilaphile. I can personally attest to his awesome cool. And then came that tweet from him this afternoon.

Now I could probably bear his not-so-conventional ways of provoking thoughts to people...from angst-ridden political tirades to random bursts of the word fuck. I mean, yeah, a lot of people have been swearing fuck on their shoutouts nowadays. I realized, given the frequency and the prominence of such matters, you can always swear a lot without any linger of guilt, or fear of derision. And with that realization, came another. I realized we may also have gone this far with the issue of HIV.

Two years before I was born, a certain Dr. Luc Montagnier discovered the virus that causes the disease. The world was put in a state of shock when the medical study was published. And along with that shock came fear, discrimination, denial. Fastforward 29 years to today, the words "HIV" and "AIDS" are whacked to our heads everyday that we don't even feel the shock value anymore.

I suppose that's how so many people think about the issue of HIV today. Take out the people who actually don't know much about the disease, and you'll come up with a statistic of billions of people who know about how he/she can contract the virus. Take out the people who were educated about the real score, and you'll come up with another statistic of billions of people who just don't give a fuck about the real score. This is, at the back of my head, is what people see today about this kind of tragedy.

Almost 5500 people die of AIDS everyday, according to the 2008 report from USAID. If this report was published back in 1981, it'll be at the headlines of every newspaper here in the planet, causing instant panic. But let's say I conduct an experiment today with my friends here in Facebook, where I'll show that very same report to them. Chances are, their initial response would be "well, may magagawa pa ba ako sa mga namatay sa AIDS?"

That got me thinking. Gas-gas na ba ang salitang HIV at AIDS sa pang araw-araw na bokabularyo natin? Has that person who tweeted about his friend's diagnosis got so used to the issue that it has already bordered on normalcy? Not that I am putting this guy in a negative light or anything, but I was just surprised at how casual we've become to tweet something as delicate as a case of HIV infection. I asked myself if it's a good or a bad thing. Is the HIV/AIDS issue already so indifferent, so perfunctory, so lackadaisical that we don't think anything in this world except God can take it away from us? If many people have come up with the definition of "indifference" such as this, I don't wanna know how they define "ignorance".

Unfortunately, the very word "ignorance" perfectly describes the sad and frustrating state of our world today. And when I mean "our" world, it's the world where I am in. The world of us, gay people.

A good friend of mine did a very interesting experiment in a notoriously-famous social networking site for gays, where men can contact other men for sex. He created around 10 bogus user profiles, posing as real users, with pictures of handsome and well-built, gym-toned naked bodies with penises hanging between their legs that are more than 8 inches (you know how everyone can admittedly become size queens, right?). He then tried to message every gay guy on that site - guys with the same features depicted on the pictures of the poser profiles -- with a status message that says "looking for sex". Out of every 10 replies, one will say "no", 2 will say "let's use condoms, please", and 7 will agree to do bareback sex. What's ironic is that those 7 people have the words "always safe sex" written on their profiles.

Incredibly disturbing. That experiment was later published in a school term paper in UP.

What can be inferred from this experiment is that many sexually-active and promiscuous gay men today simply ignore the dangers of unprotected sex, in exchange for thirty minutes of carnal pleasure. But then more thought-provoking questions ensue. What happened to every propaganda... condoms, gay prides, pink advocacies, all that foster and promote safe sex? Has HIV and AIDS become just another virus like the common cold? That AIDS is something we'll be able to cure just as simple as downing a pill of Excedrin? Did the campaigns backfired and made AIDS sound so conventional, even mainstream? Yeah, you can always inform everyone that your neighbor just got the virus. That HIV is on the rise. Did it help curb the rise, though? There's always another case of HIV infection being reported almost everyday.

Did we actually put AIDS in a positive light that it became positive to become positive?

Nowadays, to actually ask someone to use a condom when having sex may sound annoying, even forceful, when that person doesn't feel like using one, and provided they assume the risks. But then you may also ask, why would that person don't want to use a condom at all?

I could derive my own conclusions, drawing from life experiences from people around me, but here's a very noteworthy excerpt from an article about barebacking, published in The Body website. This article explains perfectly well how I feel about those people.

"I don't doubt the validity of these explanations, but I think the answer must lie deeper within the psyche. The emotional need that drives men to bareback must be so powerful that they will literally risk their lives to satisfy it. If you ask me, barebacking is an attempt to escape from the awful sense of isolation that we all experience as human beings. That isolation is perhaps an inevitable consequence of our separate existence as individuals. But it's particularly acute for us gay men, who have grown up in a society hostile to our identity. Having spent so much of our lives on the outside, alienated from members of the majority (straight) culture, we gay men have an intense need to feel truly connected to others like ourselves."

http://www.thebody.com/content/art56400.html

Perhaps after you read the article above, one may think that there are already measures in place, that we're already trying to address the problem. Yes, we already have the gears set in motion. There are individuals and groups of people who are dedicating their time and efforts to fight the misconceptions about HIV and AIDS, more so the disease itself. But I believe most of the strategies applied today by advocates may not be as effective today as it was, two five, or 10 years ago. There is a very complicated web of factors that expose many young people to the disease. Stress, today's lifestyle, misinformation and miseducation, are just some of them. The bigger factor though, is the fact that many homosexual men are still tied to the repressive state of living, either domestically or socially, that unprotected sex has become their means to cope. I can think a lot more of these reasons, but there's just so many to tell.

I believe, more than Malate Gay Pride parties laden with safe sex promotions, and Robin Padilla advertisements (which kinda was an effective push aimed at heterosexuals), groups like The Library Foundation (an LGBT advocacy group campaigning for HIV/AIDS awareness and prevention) and the Department of Health must focus on the very underlying causes of why men engage in this unsafe practice. The reasons identified in the article are very compellingly psychological and emotional, and it won't be long before these reasons can implode in our very own world and we may have no way of getting out of it.

Perhaps it's about time we identify and try to understand those very needs of men who resort to bareback sex just to feel a temporal sense of intimacy and union. Perhaps we can tweak our current programs so we can effectively aim at preventing HIV infection, right at the source...and not just giving away free condoms or slapping Youtube videos about safe sex to people we know who are, or who could be sexually promiscuous. Perhaps we can talk it out openly to these people who are in dire need for a feeling of belongingness, whether coming from family, friends, the society, or someone they desire. Perhaps we can actually listen to these people who are looking for answers on questions about their purpose in life - purpose that need not be cut out by this kind tragedy.

Perhaps this is the cure we've been looking for all this time.

Looking back at the younger years of my sexual liberation, I was also exposed to the dangers of meeting guys infected with STDs. Then life took on a different direction -- a grace from a Higher Power and the good news of testing negative back in December last year (the two weeks of waiting for the lab result was the most agonizing time of my life). Nowadays I can say I am fortunate to focus on far more significant matters in life than satisfying worldly delights. But what about those whose lives are still treading the roads leading to the dead-end? What about those people who have yet to find their sense of belongingness in a repressive world? May magagawa ba tayo sa mga taong yun?

A resounding YES.

The reality is this: the virus is here to stay, for now. And as much as I hope that an effective vaccine against HIV will soon be formulated and made available, there's a greater hope for us to take the people out of the miserable, vicious cycle of blinded dissolution and transcendence, and stop the gears that move it. I really do hope.


P.S. Four months ago I wrote a note about my anger towards someone who posted something about what she wants to do with people who have HIV. Now I finally understood why she said it.

~ Joel Aldor

(please click here to see Joel's original FB note. Thank you Anon 1150 for directing me to it.)

Toronto Celebrates PRIDE Week

Toronto Pride Week

Pride Week returns to Toronto in 2010 from June 25-July 4, capping off with the Dyke March on Saturday July 3, and the 30th annual Pride Parade on Sunday July 4.

Happy Canada Day!